Affirmations of FRD

I am who I am.

I am Strong, confident, not afraid to speak my mind. I fight for what I believe in, and it gets me into trouble quite often but at the end of the day at least I can say I took a stand and fought for what I truly believed in.

I am a person of truth. I hate being lied to or lying to others, honesty is the best policy in my opinion. The truth will set you free they say.

I am a person of honor. If I say I will do something I usually do.

I am a person of humor. I make witty and sarcastic jokes, and when people laugh it makes me happy as laughter is the best medicine.

I love animals. I am passionate about helping them, it is what I strive to do. If see wrong being done to an animal, I fight for them. If I see them in pain I help them. If they need a home, I try and find them one. There is no greater love than the innocent love of an animal. Animals are selfless and they expect nothing in return and love you wholeheartedly and fully and to me there is nothing better.

I am a person of art. I make art, be it good or bad. To me it is a release of frustration a release of passion, fear, anger, love, hope and all emotion. If it’s good it’s good, if it’s bad it’s bad. I don’t care because what I make is a part of me and you don’t have to like it.

I like criticism in an effective manner. If you’re mean, it offends me. If you are honest, and offer help on how I can improve, then I take it and work with it.

I make photographs. They aren’t often good, I snap what I see and don’t care if it’s in perfect working order. If I like it, I wanna capture it, if it’s a bit out of focus or technically off then oops my bad! But as long as I have some aspect of that memory to keep then to me any bad photograph is worth taking.

I try not to dwell in the past and live in the here and now, but I admit I’m guilty of the dwelling. I sometimes hold grudges, but to be fair to myself and the people I begrudge it is most likely for a very good reason.

I admit when I am wrong and apologize.

I hate wearing dresses or flashy clothes; I am most comfortable in my baggy jeans and a hoddie shirt.

I hate makeup and fussing with my hair.

I wear ankle socks and love em!

I am a nerd, I have contacts but prefer my glasses.

I procrastinate with things that pertain to myself. Not because I don’t want to do them but because I like to procrastinate.

I am a person of love. Love is the best thing in the world that anyone can give. If we all learned to love one another, the world will be a better place.

I someday want to travel the world, to places like Africa, South Africa, and Haiti as well as the rest of the world. I want to immerse myself in the different cultures that exist, learn about worldly ways of life.

I support equality for all. Religion, gender, gender identity, sexual orientation, race or political backgrounds don’t matter to me. We are all one people and we should learn to treat each other as such.

I believe that music is the soul. It soothes the soul, calms the soul and illuminates the soul.

I want to go to Antarctica because it would be fascinating to see the coldest place on the planet.

I hate the cold, but love looking at cold scenery. The snow and ice make things quite beautiful at times.

I wanna live amongst the movie stars not because I want to be rich and famous, but because I want to see how real they are when they aren’t on tv.

I want to live someplace warm, when the sun always shines and the birds always sing.

I will be rich and famous, not because I want to be but because I have been patient enough and endured all kinds of hell to get there but even if I am not, it doesn’t matter to me as money isn’t everything.

Medicine, Veterinatry Medicine, Biology, Science and Evolution all fascinate me. I strive to learn how medicine works, how virus’ are constructed, how the body fights a cold and how humans came to be. All of it, its just astoundingly amazing to me.

I believe in God but not in religion. I pray every single night for the same 4 people and my 2 dogs.

I’m not beautiful or ugly, just me.

I am a bit overweight but I love myself just the way I am.

I love whole heartedly and with every fiber of my being.

I am sensitive yet strong.

I am deep.

I am spirited.

I am feisty

I am sensitive

I am me

I am Filly D’Inverno

Today

Before I post my first written piece of 2010. I just want to say that this poem, may appear to be one of suicide and I just want to clarify that while my spirit is crushed I do not want to die. I just want today to be over with. So while you read this, and it is a sad one keep that in mind and please don't send me a 1,000 emails asking me if I am ok. I am, just a bit shattered today.

“Today”

It hurts today…

My world faded to gray

Hopeless

Lifeless

My spirit shattered and crushed today

I feel lost today

Blinking back tears

Consumed by the overpowering thoughts of sadness and despair

I don’t know why today

I don’t know how today

Maybe I should run away today…

It hurts today…

It hurts today…

Goodbye Today….

© FRD 2010

~F~

A moment for Haiti

In our everyday lives we like to rant, bitch moan and complain about our hectic lives, and all the shit that goes wrong and we often forget that there are real tragedies and real life disasters out there.

Its disasters like the one that is happening right now in Haiti that sometimes often put things into perspective for some people but for most people they just get on and about with their lives.

I am asking anyone who comes onto this blog today to stop for a moment and say a prayer or send your good thoughts to the people over in Haiti, forget about your petty drama for a second and pray for those poor helpless people whose lives have been destroyed by this natural disaster. Pray for them, and their families, pray for their children, their pets, those who lost their lives, those who were injured, those who lost their homes. If you can send them money, donate blood, send them clothes, food. Do whatever you can to help those in who right now desperately need it.

To my friends in Haiti, my thoughts and prayers are with you. To those that have lost someone, my heart goes out to you. May you find comfort and hope in your times of need.

~F~

The Drive Home

I was going t post this as one of the photos for Project 365 but I ended up using a different one for that day. This is taken by my house, there is a mental institution in the back of it but this land is actually protected Marsh Land. Its quite a peaceful and calm photo, and the colors are so pretty.

Moving Celebrity Crush of the Day

So I have decided to keep this blog as a personal rant, my celebrity crush posts were taking over and when I started this blog it was suppose to be for personal use only. Then I was asked to post the celebrity crush of the day posts but some people via email. So I have moved the blog to
Celebrity Crush of the Day

I have left all the old posts on this blog, but have moved them over to the new blog as well and any new celebrity crush posts will be made there.

Think Before You Speak

This is one of the best commercials I have ever seen.

Project 365, 2010

A few days ago I was inspired to take pictures of something only I was drawing a blank. So I posted a message on my facebook page for ideas or concepts I could photograph when I got a reply from a friend of mine to told out about Project 365. Project 365 was started by Taylor McKnight back in 2004. He documented his life in photographs day by day using only one photograph per day.

I am going to try to accomplish a similar feeling. My photographs will depict my day to day moods, whats going on in my life, my travels to work, home or school, my life with my family, friends and pets, inspiration for new artwork and other things that will just trigger my mind to take a picture. I encourage anyone who is intrested in taking photographs to start a project like this because when I was reading about Taylor's project he stated that it does indeed help you become a better photographer and thats in addition to looking back on your year and seeing the photographs that you took, which in itself is also a wonderful thing.

So check it out here at Project 365

Please do not hesitate to comment on any of the photographs as I encourage it and welcome new ideas, and tips.

The Beginning

Have you ever had someone in your life that just made your heart skip a beat? That gave you butterflies every single time they were near? That just made you feel whole? Did you ever have anyone that you felt all that for and sometimes felt that they didn't feel the same? Then that one special moment when you're staring into their eyes, you realize that you're both falling in love. The beginning of that love is just amazing....This song kinda says that, gets me all choked up. Check out the lyrics below and perhaps take a gander at the song when you get a chance.

Love to all

~F~

The Beginning By Alice Peacock

Verse 1
Step out with me into the great unknown
The world's at our feet, let's make it our home
I'm looking at you with the stars up above
It must be true; we're falling in love

Chorus
Look at us now – it took so long to find out
This is the beginning...of our new life
Baby keep holding on
It's time to start living and open our eyes
Open our eyes…

Verse 2
Sometimes it seems to too good to be true
Feels like a dream just being with you
Cuz’ I never thought that I'd get enough
But I'm satisfied and filled with your love

Chorus
Look at us now – took so long to find out
This is the beginning...of our new life
Baby keep holding on
It's time to start living and open our eyes
Open our eyes…

Bridge
I'd swim the oceans, yeah all 7 seas
Just to show you the scope of what you mean to me
I would shout it out loud
In the midst of a crowd
You’re everything to me now…

Chorus
This is the beginning...of our new life
Baby keep holding on
It's time to start living and open our eyes
Open our eyes…

(repeat)

Spruce up Cheap Holiday Ornaments!

I am going to explain to you two simple ways of sprucing up some plain holiday ornaments. If you are trying to decorate your house you know that you cannot always find ornaments in the colors you wish to use. Other times packages of ornaments can be rather pricey so you decide to ether go for the pricey packages or you don’t both situations leaving you a bit frustrated.

I recently bought a white Holiday Tree and my plan was to decorate it using blue, silver and black ornaments, the blue and silver ornaments were easy to find, but when it came time to find black ornaments I could not find any for the life of me! So I decided to go search the dollar store near my house for some cheap inexpensive ornaments that I could spruce up.

What you need for both projects

1.Cheap holiday Ornaments from a dollar store or any other discount store colored and clear.

2. Salt

3. Colored Pastels

4. Spray paint.

5. Clothes line

6. Respirator or mask of some sort

7. Newspaper or some computer paper scraps

8. Super glue

9. Clothes pins.

10. Mono filament or some heavy duty string.

Project 1

For the first project you will need a can of spray paint, a respirator or mask, some clothes line, clothes pins, mono filament or heavy duty string and of course some cheap dollar store ornaments.

You don’t have to sand the ornaments as they will hold the color pretty well, but if you would like to a soft light sanding will always help the paint adhere better.

Now be sure to do this in a well ventilated area and put your mask or respirator on. Hang up your clothes line from one end of something solid to another and make sure it is secure. If you line dry your clothes you can skip this step as you probably already have a clothes line all hung.

Next take your ornaments and string a piece of mono filament or heavy duty string through the part where you would normally put the hook and hang them from the line by the mono filament or string.

You may want to place something underneath the ornaments because while you spray them they will drip. If you don’t mind getting paint allover the area you are spraying, then you can skip this step. But a good drop cloth or some newspaper should work just fine.

Next standing about 4-5 inches away from the ornaments spray the ornaments and as you spray them they will spin so you don’t have to turn them much. If you notice they are not spinning just give them a quick twirl and they shall spin, this will ensure that you get a pretty even coat of spray paint.

Once you are done spraying let them dry for about 10 minutes and examine them for any parts that you have missed, then spray on a second coat. Let dry again for another 10 minutes and examine again, if they need another coat, then give them another coat, if not then just let them dry, they should be fully dry to the touch in about 1-2 hours depending on weather conditions in your area.

Let them cure for a full 24 hours though before placing them on your treat.

Here is an image of the end result

Project 2

For the next project you will need a package of clear, see through, ornaments, they can be plastic or glass, the plastic ones work better as they are much lighter than the glass ones. You need a large container of salt, and some colored charcoal, or chalk and either scrap newspaper or computer paper.

The first step in this is to lay out your paper or newspaper all over your surface that you will be working on.

Second take an ornament and take the part that the hook would normally hang from out. Fill the ornaments with salt to the top and then dump it out on your newspaper or scrap computer paper in my case I used both. I used the newspaper to cover the surface and the computer paper to color my salt on.

Next dump the salt onto the paper and spread it out. Take a piece of charcoal and start coloring the salt, you only need to run it over the salt a few times. Then take the salt and move it around into the pigment from the charcoal until you see that the salt is no longer white.

Once your salt is all colored you refill the ornament and simply stick the part that the hook would hang from back into the ornament. If you would like to simply keep it that way you can, or you can make them more permanent by adding glue to that little part and then sticking them back into the ornament. (Note if you do this, you can no longer re-move the salt, should you wish to change the color)

The end result

Let Love In

Why does it always have to be about sexual orientation, gender, color, race, creed, religion, politics? Why cant it for once be about the human person, the human heart? Why is it so difficult to find love within yourself for your fellow human being? There isn't enough love to go around as it is, so why shoot the ones who have it down? Why kick them when their high? Why hate? Why punish someone solely for their differences?

To anyone who has ever uttered a derogatory comment to a person different from yourself, ask yourself this , ask yourself, is it truly worth it? Ask yourself how you would feel if you were in their shoes? To be called names such as "nigger" if your African American, "spick" if your Mexican, "fag or dyke" if you're gay or lesbian, "dego" if your Italian, "dothead " if you're Hindu, "polock " if your Polish, and there are so many more I could name, but just by reading those, any person with any moral sense of humanity can see that they are wrong. NO one deserves to be called any of those names. NO ONE!

Ask yourself what makes anyone of a different religion or race, color , gender, or sexual oritentation different from anyone of us? Because if you truly look, if you truly open your eyes and see whats standing there right in front of you, you would see that no matter what, we are all the same, inside. We all have one heart that beats, one brain that keeps us alive. Some of us may be a different color, some of us may be missing an organ, or a hand or have another physical deformity, some us us practice different religions, or love those that are the same gender as we are. But inside, inside, we all have the same color blood, we all have one heart that keeps that blood flowing and one brain that keeps our bodies powered. Why? Because we are all human. Look inside the soul of someone you spent years hating upon, because you thought they were different, and maybe, just maybe you might make a new friend. How would you know the type of life a person leads if you dont give them a change to be a part of yours.

This isn't about being gay or lesbian. This isn't about being white, black, mexican or of any other decent. This isn't isnt about whether you believe in God or Allah, but its about love, its about tolerance, it's about respecting your fellow humans and learning to love one another as we are. We need to stop the hate, we need to stop killing each other for stupid reasons, we need to stop waging wars on other countries in the name of power, greed, or god and we just need to look inside one another and learn to love one another, because without love, we have nothing. You could have every thing in the world but without love, and it can be any kind of love, friendship, a pet, family, or a lover, but with out love, you are empty.

So to the people out there trying to ban gay marriage, to the people out there trying to use religion as their defense against it, to the people who are just downright racist, against others, to those that hate based on religion, open up your hearts, let that love in. Make friends with your gay neighbor, or your Muslim coworker, give somebody a chance. JUST SPREAD LOVE and maybe together we can abolish the hate!

~F~