Affirmations of FRD

I am who I am.

I am Strong, confident, not afraid to speak my mind. I fight for what I believe in, and it gets me into trouble quite often but at the end of the day at least I can say I took a stand and fought for what I truly believed in.

I am a person of truth. I hate being lied to or lying to others, honesty is the best policy in my opinion. The truth will set you free they say.

I am a person of honor. If I say I will do something I usually do.

I am a person of humor. I make witty and sarcastic jokes, and when people laugh it makes me happy as laughter is the best medicine.

I love animals. I am passionate about helping them, it is what I strive to do. If see wrong being done to an animal, I fight for them. If I see them in pain I help them. If they need a home, I try and find them one. There is no greater love than the innocent love of an animal. Animals are selfless and they expect nothing in return and love you wholeheartedly and fully and to me there is nothing better.

I am a person of art. I make art, be it good or bad. To me it is a release of frustration a release of passion, fear, anger, love, hope and all emotion. If it’s good it’s good, if it’s bad it’s bad. I don’t care because what I make is a part of me and you don’t have to like it.

I like criticism in an effective manner. If you’re mean, it offends me. If you are honest, and offer help on how I can improve, then I take it and work with it.

I make photographs. They aren’t often good, I snap what I see and don’t care if it’s in perfect working order. If I like it, I wanna capture it, if it’s a bit out of focus or technically off then oops my bad! But as long as I have some aspect of that memory to keep then to me any bad photograph is worth taking.

I try not to dwell in the past and live in the here and now, but I admit I’m guilty of the dwelling. I sometimes hold grudges, but to be fair to myself and the people I begrudge it is most likely for a very good reason.

I admit when I am wrong and apologize.

I hate wearing dresses or flashy clothes; I am most comfortable in my baggy jeans and a hoddie shirt.

I hate makeup and fussing with my hair.

I wear ankle socks and love em!

I am a nerd, I have contacts but prefer my glasses.

I procrastinate with things that pertain to myself. Not because I don’t want to do them but because I like to procrastinate.

I am a person of love. Love is the best thing in the world that anyone can give. If we all learned to love one another, the world will be a better place.

I someday want to travel the world, to places like Africa, South Africa, and Haiti as well as the rest of the world. I want to immerse myself in the different cultures that exist, learn about worldly ways of life.

I support equality for all. Religion, gender, gender identity, sexual orientation, race or political backgrounds don’t matter to me. We are all one people and we should learn to treat each other as such.

I believe that music is the soul. It soothes the soul, calms the soul and illuminates the soul.

I want to go to Antarctica because it would be fascinating to see the coldest place on the planet.

I hate the cold, but love looking at cold scenery. The snow and ice make things quite beautiful at times.

I wanna live amongst the movie stars not because I want to be rich and famous, but because I want to see how real they are when they aren’t on tv.

I want to live someplace warm, when the sun always shines and the birds always sing.

I will be rich and famous, not because I want to be but because I have been patient enough and endured all kinds of hell to get there but even if I am not, it doesn’t matter to me as money isn’t everything.

Medicine, Veterinatry Medicine, Biology, Science and Evolution all fascinate me. I strive to learn how medicine works, how virus’ are constructed, how the body fights a cold and how humans came to be. All of it, its just astoundingly amazing to me.

I believe in God but not in religion. I pray every single night for the same 4 people and my 2 dogs.

I’m not beautiful or ugly, just me.

I am a bit overweight but I love myself just the way I am.

I love whole heartedly and with every fiber of my being.

I am sensitive yet strong.

I am deep.

I am spirited.

I am feisty

I am sensitive

I am me

I am Filly D’Inverno

Today

Before I post my first written piece of 2010. I just want to say that this poem, may appear to be one of suicide and I just want to clarify that while my spirit is crushed I do not want to die. I just want today to be over with. So while you read this, and it is a sad one keep that in mind and please don't send me a 1,000 emails asking me if I am ok. I am, just a bit shattered today.

“Today”

It hurts today…

My world faded to gray

Hopeless

Lifeless

My spirit shattered and crushed today

I feel lost today

Blinking back tears

Consumed by the overpowering thoughts of sadness and despair

I don’t know why today

I don’t know how today

Maybe I should run away today…

It hurts today…

It hurts today…

Goodbye Today….

© FRD 2010

~F~

A moment for Haiti

In our everyday lives we like to rant, bitch moan and complain about our hectic lives, and all the shit that goes wrong and we often forget that there are real tragedies and real life disasters out there.

Its disasters like the one that is happening right now in Haiti that sometimes often put things into perspective for some people but for most people they just get on and about with their lives.

I am asking anyone who comes onto this blog today to stop for a moment and say a prayer or send your good thoughts to the people over in Haiti, forget about your petty drama for a second and pray for those poor helpless people whose lives have been destroyed by this natural disaster. Pray for them, and their families, pray for their children, their pets, those who lost their lives, those who were injured, those who lost their homes. If you can send them money, donate blood, send them clothes, food. Do whatever you can to help those in who right now desperately need it.

To my friends in Haiti, my thoughts and prayers are with you. To those that have lost someone, my heart goes out to you. May you find comfort and hope in your times of need.

~F~

The Drive Home

I was going t post this as one of the photos for Project 365 but I ended up using a different one for that day. This is taken by my house, there is a mental institution in the back of it but this land is actually protected Marsh Land. Its quite a peaceful and calm photo, and the colors are so pretty.

Moving Celebrity Crush of the Day

So I have decided to keep this blog as a personal rant, my celebrity crush posts were taking over and when I started this blog it was suppose to be for personal use only. Then I was asked to post the celebrity crush of the day posts but some people via email. So I have moved the blog to
Celebrity Crush of the Day

I have left all the old posts on this blog, but have moved them over to the new blog as well and any new celebrity crush posts will be made there.

Think Before You Speak

This is one of the best commercials I have ever seen.

Project 365, 2010

A few days ago I was inspired to take pictures of something only I was drawing a blank. So I posted a message on my facebook page for ideas or concepts I could photograph when I got a reply from a friend of mine to told out about Project 365. Project 365 was started by Taylor McKnight back in 2004. He documented his life in photographs day by day using only one photograph per day.

I am going to try to accomplish a similar feeling. My photographs will depict my day to day moods, whats going on in my life, my travels to work, home or school, my life with my family, friends and pets, inspiration for new artwork and other things that will just trigger my mind to take a picture. I encourage anyone who is intrested in taking photographs to start a project like this because when I was reading about Taylor's project he stated that it does indeed help you become a better photographer and thats in addition to looking back on your year and seeing the photographs that you took, which in itself is also a wonderful thing.

So check it out here at Project 365

Please do not hesitate to comment on any of the photographs as I encourage it and welcome new ideas, and tips.

The Beginning

Have you ever had someone in your life that just made your heart skip a beat? That gave you butterflies every single time they were near? That just made you feel whole? Did you ever have anyone that you felt all that for and sometimes felt that they didn't feel the same? Then that one special moment when you're staring into their eyes, you realize that you're both falling in love. The beginning of that love is just amazing....This song kinda says that, gets me all choked up. Check out the lyrics below and perhaps take a gander at the song when you get a chance.

Love to all

~F~

The Beginning By Alice Peacock

Verse 1
Step out with me into the great unknown
The world's at our feet, let's make it our home
I'm looking at you with the stars up above
It must be true; we're falling in love

Chorus
Look at us now – it took so long to find out
This is the beginning...of our new life
Baby keep holding on
It's time to start living and open our eyes
Open our eyes…

Verse 2
Sometimes it seems to too good to be true
Feels like a dream just being with you
Cuz’ I never thought that I'd get enough
But I'm satisfied and filled with your love

Chorus
Look at us now – took so long to find out
This is the beginning...of our new life
Baby keep holding on
It's time to start living and open our eyes
Open our eyes…

Bridge
I'd swim the oceans, yeah all 7 seas
Just to show you the scope of what you mean to me
I would shout it out loud
In the midst of a crowd
You’re everything to me now…

Chorus
This is the beginning...of our new life
Baby keep holding on
It's time to start living and open our eyes
Open our eyes…

(repeat)